When I wrote this persona poem a while back, I did not do so out of veneration or sympathy for Lou. I did not write it to make a point of any sort. I just sat down one day and decided I wanted to write a persona poem that actually said something, with no intention of letting anyone hear it. When I read over it, I decided that I enjoyed the writing regardless of its subject, so I would post it.
Lou the Lover
The ballerina’s first spin
Caused a crack
To arise from the bubbles
Buried beneath the
Smooth of her joints,
Scraping against each other,
To the surface
For a breath of air
She heard it nice and quite
Clearly too
It was jagged and
Truthful too
But a silent alarm
Sounded beneath the tightly
Formed canvas on the drum
Of her skin
It reminded her
Of the imagined inhaling
Of her noise
That prefaced the suckling
of her tongue
Against a bloody tooth or two.
The noise made
When a man pushes a white stalactite
Into a cave of fleshy pink
It all came from her smile
Perfect and demure
Wide and stylized
Bleached clean to
Look almost squeaky
With its shiny sheen
And the way the news
Kept informing her
Of another rapist
The rapist traveled around town
Quite impressively, really
So that he might find and bind
A woman or man
Made no difference, really
And with his body
Slowly intuit a grind
A deep and slow twist
Of his hip
He liked the way smooth curves
Might try to resist the waves
As they advanced
In a crooked
And corrupted
Ebb and flow
Every day
These people walk by
Without an idea of danger
To linger in their eye
Every day
With a nudge and push
They assert
Themselves
In lines full
To brim just
For a taste
Of something sweet, maybe
A cupcake, a smoothie
A cookie bleeding
smudged chocolate
From the impact of the sun
Everything in this world
Is just so damn stable
And so maybe
He found it alright to flip a table
He wanted the earth to quake
And when he walked at night
Grabbed his prey right
When they shook beneath
All that girth
He piled on top of them:
Mirth
Just because
Like a concerto
Opening into the room
He could feel every force
Move and writhe
As though skin were dirt
And he was Gaia
Giving birth to worms
He never needed
To force his way into beds
He could cause enough
Heads to turn
That his heart should
Not need to burn
But what use was it
When they moaned mildly?
And even when he ran
A soft leathery hand
Across such a smoothly
Formed chest
He found he was
Empty like the rest
And those too
He gave them nothing
Unforgettable
Or entirely new
No matter what,
Afterwards,
They might mew
But when he seized
And they shoved
When he heard them
Muffle and shuffle
When he slid his hand across
The wide map of their
Soft body
To feel the dips, the valleys
The crested hills
He knew he made something,
Stirred a fire somewhere
Within them
He made them
So full of burning,
Fire for escape
Rage, hate, fear
Maybe even arousal
Love, for those weird
Ones that resisted less,
So he wondered
How they expected him
To loathe himself
No, the workers
In the factories
The buzzers
In the office spaces
Would loathe themselves
For their every repression
And harmful digression
But he shook things
And the worst harm he brought
Were a few minds
Shattered open like egg shells
Just more statistics
And in some way
He was better off than
The news anchors and high up
Law officers, because
At least he knew those numbers
He knew them sometimes
By the bite mark he left
When breaking the flesh of their shoulder
Or the laceration
That ran straight and
Smoother than a river
Marked by the crawl
Of his fingers
He knew those numbers
Better than every
Single statistician
And search engine
In town
Every time he
Escapaded to a new
Menagerie of derangery
He liked to spend himself
Hot and heavily
In the seeping and weeping
Artery of this piece of love
He clung himself to
Yes, he knew that
One day, they’d unzip
Those double helices of his
And the mystery would unravel
Like a chromosome
Cleaving itself in two
To create I and you
He did not mind though
They would uncover him
One day
In fact
He looked forward
To the moment
The door swung open
And they’d find him
In his chair
With a smile
Blood in a cool pile
Smoking steel in a firm grip
And a hole
So deep and so wide,
Were it he were alive,
He might just want to
Struggle inside
~Austin R Ryan